so fast.. a year had passed so easily... somehow.. i have gotten used to praying for u at the altar instead of having u sitting beside mi, chanting your sutras... Now... u wun affect my emotions so much le... my heart aches lesser when i tink of u... does tt really means tt time will heal all wounds?? maybe... but everytime i will feel so sad even a bit angry tt u cant stay with us longer(not angry with u).. i always tot tt we can stay tog... i noe not forever... but definitely not so fast... at least for 2 more yrs... tt's wad i tot... and wad i hope.. juz at least 2 yrs...
I noe u really hope tt i will do well in my A levels even though i always looked demoralised abt the results i have... but when i received my certificate... u aren't around when we were celebrating... instead.. i have to stand in front of the altar to tell u tt... at tt time.. how i hope tt i can smile brightly in front of u n show u my certificate...
Now.. Da jie is graduating... I noe although she din sae out, she definitely felt tt it will be better if u are able to attend her ceremony... a ticket she cant give out... u wun be there anymore to see her on stage.. u wun be there to see her in her grad suit.. u wun be there when she throw her hat...
and most importantly.. u wun be in the family photo we are going to take soon.... our family photo wun be totally completed without u... a regret which we will nv be able to fullfil...
maybe u ARE here... maybe u did see all our acheivements... maybe u will be going to sis grad ceremony... all these maybe are comforts to us... but... even if its really true... we still cant see u.. we cant hug u anymore...
there are things i nv told u.. and things i can nv say to u in real agn... i love u.... ah ma
